Friday 19 December 2014

Guys are so hard to understand sometimes

Well ^ thats an ex of mines but ill use him as a short reference guide..
    When i first saw him it was only him in a picture in his dads wallet. 
I feel inlove with him instintly. Or so i thought i did. We spent like 8mnths to 1 year talking.
We shared pictures sometimes .. Sometimes good and sometimes bad.. And he said he really loved me ... But he had a girlfriend. I didnt care at first because i had my mind set on having him for myself but i didnt think of all the harm i was causing her.. One day we lost contact and we didnt speak again but i was really close with his dad. His dad would always tell me and keep me updated with things about him .. He was the best.! And all of a sudden one day i walk out of my room and there he was ... In my very own living room . I stood speechless and my little sister tried to push me out to talk to him but i wouldnt budge.. All the time ive known him and for once i got to meet him in real life face to face... Everything was good at first .. We talked back on bbm and then he still told me he didnt have a girlfriend.. It was hard to believe but i did only latter to find out that it was a lie, but i was soo "INLOVE" that it hurt me and i didnt care. He was only suppose to stay a month but he stayed 2 weeks longer for me.. On the day he was supposed to leave he gave me roses.. Up to this very day i still have them in my room and ive never planned on throwing them away. He was very speacial to me. On completing two months we broke up because of a small bad arguement.. In less than 2 months he went back to his ex... I felt worthless and as though he had just used me .. I had thoughts of suicide and doing damage but i stayed strong because if i wasnt then who would be?
We stopped talking and i hooked up with this guy , little did i know that they were bestfriends in school... What a small world right.. Well he started talking about me badly and i know because i read the messages. He then latter added me on bbm and insulted me like 1month and 3 weeks after me and his ex-bestfriend broke up. I was so confused. I hated myself . But what could i do but stay strong?
Everynow and then i cry for him but its too late because we cant undo our little regrets.
"Thats my story"
Guys are sometimes so hard to understand..
They might leave their girlfriends for you and make you feel speacial but chances are is that they are going to use you .. Not all the time but most of the time.
If they cheat on their girlfriend for you.. Trust me sweety dont feel speacial because if he can cheat on his girlfriend and suddenly they brake up and he makes you his main... Always remember he can cheat on you " his new girlfriend"
Please be careful .. Always give 60% 40%
You keep 60% and give him 40% so that if he brakes you.. You still have that 20% to pick up yourself and dust your pants/skirt and smile and walk with your middle finger high and make sure to walk ahead of him so he has a perfect position to kiss your pretty little butt!
Tell me what you think ..
Is there anything i could help you with?

Trust God, make him your friend.
Because even when your friend betray you... He deffinately wont!
            -Kerry Hernandez